Monthly Archives: May 2012

FUCK!!!! WHY?! It was a bad idea to go home and think that everything will go fine! I can’t be alone for one second anymore! I can’t even be at home! Why can’t I trust myself?! Why can’t I stop … Continue reading →

I’ve made some friends at the hospital too, I’ve been speaking with a girl and we’ve gotten along very good. We have talked about why we are at the hospital, and if I say my life is fucked… oh boy.. … Continue reading →

Saturday 12.5 16:46 So this is my first whole day at the mental hospital at Roparnäs. I got here yesterday and it turned out I’m not allowed to have a computer after all, so much for my ‘I’m gonna keep … Continue reading →

So this is it, the road to sanity starts tomorrow. Tomorrow I’m going to the mental hospital in Roparnäs and stay there for a few weeks. There they’ll keep an eye on me that I don’t do anything bad, so … Continue reading →

While looking for the answers, only questions come to mind ‘Cause I’ve been lost in circles, which seems now for quite some time And I don’t know how I came here, even how I got this far All I can … Continue reading →

‘Just let me go’… It’s so easy to say. But how hard is it to let go of someone? Well that depends, and in my case, letting go of You would be like walking on water for me, and who … Continue reading →

I didn’t write anything yesterday because I didn’t have the will to write anything. Yesterday I went to my apartment around 3 o’clock with my mother to pick up the most of my stuff, feels kinda weird to move out … Continue reading →

I’m on my way home from Helsinki right now. I had a really great weekend, even when I think in what situation I am right now, so it was great to just get away from everything. And my mind didn’t … Continue reading →

Today I’ve spent about five hours on a train to Helsinki. It has been so great to just get away from everything and everyone and go to a place where you don’t see that much new. So when I got … Continue reading →

Sitting on a train trying to figure out what the hell I should do. But every choice seems so bad, but I guess I just gotta do what feels right. But it feels so good to just get away for … Continue reading →

Right now my head is so messed up that I can’t really even think clearly. I know that I don’t wanna be in school and that I have absolutely no strength for it, I need a time out. So I … Continue reading →

Today, from the moment I woke up to about 12 o’clock I’ve felt this really strange feeling. When I came to school and saw all the people there, I felt like I recognized them but I had no idea why … Continue reading →

So now I’m back in the city and I have three schooldays to the next weekend. This small holiday I’ve been at home the whole time. My brother from Helsinki has been home too so I’ve been building a house … Continue reading →